I know I cant...n so I wont

there are certain things in my life i knew i really cant control it..i mean things happened unexpectedly..

i know i cant take my life for granted...so i wont ever try not to enjoy every moment of it

i know i cant be pleased by everyone...so i wont take any chances to let myself cause my heart so much misery

i know i cant be complete alone...so i wont force my heart to be broken each day

i know i cant be perfect...so i wont run away from those hearts who need n love me

i know i cant like everybody around me...so i wont compel myself to stop being so

i know i cant be an angel...so i wont ever try to be 1

i know i cant be whatever i want to be if i alwiz said NO...so i wont reluctantly told myself that I CANT anymore

i know i cant be like others...so i wont ever ever ever force myself to be like them

coz i am me..and i will alwiz be me..

Love n regards,

A.L

::Hidup ini..(taken from emel that i've recently got)::

• kita kat dunia nih tak hidup sorg2... ada famili, ada kawan2, ada jiran, ada suami, ada isteri, ada anak, ada cucu sebagai peneman...

• sbb tu Allah jadikan bulan bintang matahari, manusia dan haiwan, tumbuh2an dan macam2 lg...

• dlm hidup kita nih, kita hidup saling tolong menolong bantu membantu... bukan saja sesama manusia, dgn haiwan jugak... dgn tumbuhan jugak...

• jadi takde istilah dgn kejayaan yg kita gapai pada hari ini adalah atas hasil usaha kita sendiri... kita tetap meminta pertolongan yg lain...

• oleh itu, suka saya nak mengingatkan pada diri saya dan juga teman2 saya...


• jangan terlalu ego utk mengakui kesilapan sendiri...


• jgn ego mengaku yg kita berjaya pd hari ini adalah hasil usaha kita sendiri


• jgn pandang rendah pada org lain...


• jgn terlalu cepat menghukum apabila sesuatu berlaku kpd kita...


• jgn suka menyalahkan org lain atas apa yg terjadi...


• jgn menidakkan pendapat atau kritikan org kpd kita...


• jgn sekali2 berkata "knp aku nak pikirkan apa yg org kata pd aku?"


• jgn memaksa org utk mengikut kata kita...

• kita hidup bukan atas dasar "hidup kau, hidup kau... hidup aku jangan kacau"

• org menegur, tentu ada sebabnya...


• tentu ada yg tak kena...


• menego bukan mencari kesalahan...


• kita ditego utk kebaikan...


• bukan kita tak pernah tahu, sahabat dan famili itu adalah cermin kanta kita...

• kalu tak reti nak hidup bermasyarakat...


• sila tinggal di hutan!


• yg dalam hutan tu pun hidup bermasyarakat, bermuafakat!


• kita hidup, saling bergantungan... jgn tidakkan kenyataan itu!

Love n Regards,

A. L

::new moon::

yeay! finished read it! well but i'm not into it like the 1st book..twilight.. but still i love it so much. i do get carried away when edward left bella..n she had a hard times healed her soul..(n her heart 2 ) it's like sumthg u'll never wish for suddenly it came true..( but i aint shed any tears..) but for once.. i do wondering..if ever sum1 u gave ur heart 4..ever leaves u juz like that..it would be a terrific disaster.. (if it's without any concrite reasons lar..huhu )

i do have a time to read it as my weekend is disaster with an emergency case () far from that..the whole holiday WAS terrific.. i've got sms asking for my address..asked the same question that i know i dont know the exact answer, got wedding cards from pals..and so on.. mind u if u search for the xtra ordinary life routine..well it's not in my list ..

cant wait 2 read another series from twilight saga..(the main reason I DO like this book..is edward cullen characters does remind me of sum1 i know..i mean the silence, cant-do-this-nor-that..n bla,bla.. except the main features la..huhu..i'm dying if i ever got BF such a face..) i give this book 7/10..(as edward part is least as i wasnt expected..)

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Love n Regards;

A.L

A twist in my story

today ~ sy da jatuh cinta dgn laptop kecil le novo...hopefully by the end of this year sy dapat memilikinye ..(huhu nangis sgt2) sy xpnah inginkan sesuatu sgt2 begini (muz b sumthg spesel bout that things agaknyer ke sy ni keanak2an..)..sy harap sgt dpt kaler pink (yeay! pink is the next choice if there's no purple!)

currently ~ gotta to finish my annual report this instant..yup..who dares to say being a GRA is an easy task? dare not to say that. lots of stress, dramas, time 2 waste, pantri times (what the heck? ) and mind u 4 as far as i'm concern, i'm spending 2 years on literature reviews n still..(not only me...most of my fwens done that..huhu)

present ~ sy lapa..tp sy da bjaya menahan diri dr godaan nasi (yeay!) sy sukakan nasi tp...sy terpakse la give up on it..huhu.. cant wait 2 see the results by end of June..(hopefully can make it)

future ~ when i'm thinking back of those times i'd wasted..only God knows how regret i am.. there's a lot of sins n troubles i'd made.. yet..times too short for me n him..everyday i keep thinking about it, counting how much time left 4 us 2 b together.. my life would be a good sad story if i can wrote it.. but then i have to be strong 4 him.. even those times when he showed how bad his hair fell, how bad his condition..i muz b strong..

coz i do believe..in my mind..in my heart.. manusia xkan di uji lebih dr kemampuannya..

n so.. i know i can through all this..it juz a matter of time..

Love n Regards,

 A.L

Lovebug

lately..i've pay much attention 2 my facebook..friendster? well  still active but juz so-n-so.. sumtimes i really had a hard times when i looked at sum of my frens..yup..i do get envied with them sumtimes.. like they all got all the beautiful lifes, easier 1 aint like mine... but do i get carried away with all such beautiful things? huh? I DO..... mom alwiz told me that life isnt what we wish 4 but is sumthg we created ourselves..

well..i'm otw creating my own world.. the world that i'll alwiz wanted long time ago.. even though i can create this world of mine..(should i called it "A.L's World..huhu) 1 thing 4 sure aint come true..n that thing will definitely appeared only in my dreams..(huh! sigh..maybe God had a better plan 4 me..)

jom lyn Lovebug from jonas brother...lalalala...

"Now I’m speechless, over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this Lovebug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit by this Lovebug again"

Love n regards;

A.L

plastic

Plastic Plas"tic\ (pl[a^]s"t[i^]k), a. [L. plasticus, Gr. ?, fr. ? to form, mold: cf. F. plastique.]

1.

Often, plastics. any of a group of synthetic or natural organic materials that may be shaped when soft and then hardened, including many types of resins, resinoids, polymers, cellulose derivatives, casein materials, and proteins: used in place of other materials, as glass, wood, and metals, in construction and decoration, for making many articles, as coatings, and, drawn into filaments, for weaving. They are often known by trademark names, as Bakelite, Vinylite, or Lucite.

11.	pliable; impressionable: the plastic mind of youth.

12.	giving the impression of being made of or furnished with plastic: We stayed at one of those plastic motels.

13.	artificial or insincere; synthetic; phony: jeans made of cotton, not some plastic substitute; a plastic smile.

14.	lacking in depth, individuality, or permanence; superficial, dehumanized, or mass-produced: a plastic society interested only in material acquisition.

courtesy: dictionary.com

luckily, i'm so kind-hearted today that i juz gave the meaning of plastic. there are some meaning but what i really want to highlite is the no 13. some of us reaaaallly can do it well. yup..i mean it. me? well i'm not that too-perfect to say that i didnt but these ppl they r so talented until u cant see the real face behind it. maybe we should gave these talented ppl some awards 2 appreciate them 4 being so PLASTIC!! yup..

new drama..same face??

currently i'm listening 2 fall out boys new song entitled "America's suiteheart" yup..love that song like SOO MUCH..(well how much is so much after all?? ) when we asked sumthg subjectives the answer is unpredictable..i mean it all depends on that 1 person..(beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder..) ooppsss..suddenly sumthg came across my mind.. i remembered watching Malaysia Hari Ini (MHI) last week.. there's a new sitcom @ TV3 entitled "BEREK".. not interested to watch pun...but what so interesting bout it..the comments from "pelakon2 senior tanah air"..phew.. "rugi xtgk cite ni..ade mcm2 pgajaran" "cite paling best" "kalo nk tgk kami lakonkan watak lain dr yg lain kene la tgk cite ni"..n..so..n..so...

huhu...the same comments la..but 4 me..statement 2 sbnrnye da mgambarkan betapa xbest nyer crite 2..dtmbh lak dgn pelakon yg riuh rendah haruk piruk 2.. ( as human being i have a right to say what i like kan..) aku bukan la pengkritik bebas industri perfileman negara...n aku bukan boikot produk karyawan tempatan.. aku layan gak cite2 hasil karya jinggo & sheila rusly, rashid sibir, n sum 2,3 person yg hasil karya agak meletop gitu.. aku lyn gak filem2 tempatan yg menepati citarasa aku, n aku mmg lyn stesen radio berbahasa melayu n dgr lagu2 melayu. tp aku agak frust la sesetgh karyawan ni main tangkap muat jer nk hasilkan drama/filem/lagu..pas2 nk salahkan org ramai sbb dgr lagu2 dr seberang.

H.E.L.L.O..? peminat malaysia ni bkn nye lembap da..da pandai nk jd juri pertandingan realiti nih..pandai da nk tentukan sape juara AF, sape Gadis Melayu terakhir, sape yg sesuei dapat wang 1 juta...n so on..(xyah amek pape kos muzik kt mane2 institut pon..) xfhm aku sesetgh penyanyi nih..main nyanyi jer lagu yg tahapehapetah.. kalo nk glamor pon pndai2 la..jgn main amek je tah pape lagu pon. lg 1 kalo ade iklan nk jd penyanyi ke, pelakon ke, pelawak ke... berduyun2 gamaknyer berlari nk uji bakat. sggup je berdiri n beratur sampai lemah lutut, tersimpul2 biawak (huhu..skt lg kaki ku ni kene simpulan biawak ) tp bile smpi depan juri...hancus. xde bakat pon tp nk gak myusahkan diri g audition.. nk ckp xtau diri xberbakat..marah lak..tp sedar2 sdiri la..kalo setakat nyanyi kt toilet n kene sound 2,3 x dgr org kt luo seda2 la sore awk 2 cmner.. ish2..ter"emo" la haku nih

Love n Regards,

A.L