the 'Needs'

Ct : Abah, nnt belikan ct layang2 ek

Abah Ct: Bg la wet ct, nnt abah blikan (teasing the girl)

Ct: Ala..ct ne ade wet..leh la abah..

Ct 2 anak jiran aku..sab2 lepas aku nmpk die main dpn umah.. ikat plastik kaler merah (ala yg plestik bungkus bese 2) dgn tali pas2 lari2 la..(ala2 layang2 versi die la..) pas2 tgh ayah die tol2 kan enjin keta, dia berdialog la dgn abah die (spt di ats..) she's a typical skoolgal (bdk darjah 2@3).. slalu myanyi kt blkg umah n ske main air kt laman..(so much reminding me 2 my childhood) =D actually die nk main lyg2 pon sbb rakan sbaye pon bz2 main mende 2.. yup..pengaruh rakan sebaye..=p

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as we grew older..the needs change a lot.. keperluan utk siapkan keje b4 end of year really hit me.. phew! keje xsiap2..(aduh..siapkan la cpt..yup! sape xnk siapkan...juz i'm really stuck!) even if i can settle my tasks, sum1 will give me a gift (Mr.Z..grrr!) i really think i cant manage 2 complete it (huh..) dahla dgn xde air kt umah aku dr ahad pas smpi ari nih..terbako je rs..smpi bile pon xtau la..(oish but aku MANDI k..xde nyer aku nk berlengas segala ) mandi kt masjid ukm lg dgn et (my hozmet..tggl aku n die je kt umah..) pas2 anto die ke sony n jeng..jeng..jeng (elemen komedi seram ) ms die otw ke sony 2 ternampak la mamat yg die minat muncul secara misteri ala2 edward cullen .. pas2 excited la et 2 jmp buah ati..(yelah pasni die cuti pnjg until new year..so ms ni la nk jamu mate..hikhik)

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well..otw ke lab then i realised that i almost forgotten how does it feels when u met sum1 u secretly admire.. yup..there was a time but it so damn long ago..excited sgt nk tgk die, xdpt tgk org..dpt tgk brg2 die pon jd la..(MAKNE NYER buku ker, beg ker, cap ke...) sume pon pernah rs kan.. normal la..(or it juz me?) n then ke MGI lak 1 hal...yup doing pathway analisis lak aku kene gune 1 software ni..tp ..humaih... pyh bebeno nk wat.. dahla aku tgh bengong2 nk wat mende alah 2..ade la pulak sorg chinese gal ni dtg2 trus ltk beg kt krusi n hentak2 brg, dgn tekan2 keyboard dgn ganas segala..humaih.. geruns aku kt sebelah.. (pe hal lak minah nih..? PMS ko? gaduh dgn balak ko? ) ntah la..pas2 gak ah pc 2 lambat trus die ke pc lain lak... hehe..



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n now i'm back @ my workplace.. so stress la..i mean my life's so dull..i'm so-home type..n when i am stress all i can do is sleep n eat.. (that's the main reason y i cant get rid of my chubby cheek..) yesterday i tried to change my blog layout..try 2 get rid off black color.. but seems like i do 'like' this dull-sorrow black color with no reason.. is it the reflection of my 'true' identity? or am i some kinda gothic person? (i do love sum pics of gothic ) besides..i love my desktop in black color..there's a pic but i'll make sure it's not too bright nor have too many colors.



hurm..back 2 Ct..last sunday finally i saw her playing with her kite..it juz a cheap ordinary kite 4 us..but 4 a kid like her..it means a lot..

Monday blues

huhu..mls wak koje ari ni.. pg td ade gotong-royong n mkn2 free.. (i love seminar/activity/pape when it comes 2 mkn2..hehe) owh yer..crite sal mkn nih..ahad lps sorg makcik aku masuk spital. bdn die agak besar ( di cni yer adik2 besar itu mmg makne die bersaiz BESAR..) pengsan sbb overweight kot..yup family mak aku mmg terkenal dgn saiz yg besar n bulat2 sume nyer.. n since yesterday, aku ni berazam la nk 2runkan lg brt aku ni (huhu..bile la aku nk tol2 berazam tang trnkan brt bdn nih) n aku declare mggu ni n mggu strusnyer "NO RICE WEEKS" until aku mncapai berat 45kg (huhu..berat ideal 48kg) leh ker? hmm..leh kot sbb b4 this i've done my calories counting n yup 4 me it works lar..lost about 5kg from August until October..pas2 xwat naik blk la..(I LOVE CHOLESTEROL..=P) huhu..walaupun sedey terpakse gak aku melupakan nasik wat seketika..ne tau ujung thn dpn leh kembali ke my original shape a year ago? (huh! ujung thn dpn?? ade pe 2?? =p) (God willing)

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:celoteh:

FAVOURITES

Colour: any shades of purple..(weee..)
Food: eskrem..n...cekelet...n...eskrem..n..cekelet..n...spicy fud
Song: now?? emm...tonight-fm static
Movie: TWILIGHT!! YEAY!
Sport: mengular jer skrg nih ..but thinking of besbol, sofbol..or back 2 volleybol??
Day of the Week: Weekends
Ice Cream: any flava..(janji eskem..)

CURRENTS

Mood: ngantuks
Taste: nyum..nyum..ayaq liur sdiri jer rs nih..
Clothes: baju kurung(wanita lindungan kaabah )
Desktop: emm..black screen
Toenail Colour: thinking of blaack color..(huhu..any1?)
Time: lunch hour
Annoyance: lagu2 yg same jer kt itunes..(tlg2..me want new songs!)
Thoughts: settle all my works (currently no mud 2 work)

FIRST

First Best Friend: my eldest bro
First Crush: adeh..malu bile ingat blk..
First Movie: Sembilu 2 kot (jgn gelak..ms kecik2 mak bwk g tgk la..aku tmn kn aje..hehe)
First Lie: cant recall
First Music: hmm..i'm into KRU(dulu2 la )

LAST

Cigarette: never!
Drink: plain water (few mins ago)
Car Ride: my Queen Bee..
Crush: mR. Z
Phone Call: Mr. Z (who else??)
Song played: Terima kasih cinta -afgan

HAVE YOU EVER..

Dated one of your best friends: No! never dated any1 besides mr.Z
Broken the law: NOPE..
Been arrested: nope!
Skinny dipped: nope!
Kissed someone you don’t know: adeh..kalo bb strangers 2 dikire x? huhu

NEXT VICTIMS
Teman kerja: Tucci!!

I Hate This Part -(phew!)

I hate this part - PCD

We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we ain't talk since we left, it's so over due
It's cold outside but between us it's worse in here

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday, 7 takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

That I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

1st time dgr..well..cm bese2 jer...tp da dgr byk kali..emm ok la..leh la msk carta itunes lagu yg aku dgr ulangkali..hehe..(ni pon sbb ade permintaan soh aku cr lagu nih) buT now i'm more into Rossa-mengenangmu n Pianka-Mau yg besar2..(as i said this song inspired me a lot..huhu) embedded below..the videoclip..as usual the lead singer alwiz looks amazing n dazzling..huhu..(next  time sape nk jd pyanyi berkump kene la jadi lead singer br la glams dr ahli2 yg lain..=p)

unXpected..huh (sigh!)

it's a hectic day..i mean..obviously wasnt as i xpected.. truly.. i had a lot in mind..n pursuing PhD wasnt 1 of them.. i do want to further my study but not a few months after i'd finish my master la..maybe after a while ..(hey..i do want 2 have my own family lar) right now what i really want is to settle my master n get a job n have a beautiful life..(mau mobil besar, rumah besar, wang besar..huhu..bak kate lagu pianka la..this song really inspired me a lot =p) ntahla..makin di pk makin xtentu lak pkran aku..i mean..i'm not the best student or fav 1, though..so i really didnt xpect all this..really..i never had a single thought about it..but i knew it has been offered 2 me from the 1st time but..the answer remains unknown (from me lar..=p)

i have a lot of things to be consider..my family..Mr. Z (yup as far as i'm concern..aku xnk dikenakan sepakan penalti hehe), want 2 buy a house n grand livina, learn foreign language, n find my own interests..i want to live my life to the fullest..instead of dull life... juz nk idup epi ikut naluri sdiri.. until that time..i alwiz feel that sum1's bored me..n i think it's me!

Ac Milan::Liverpool::Real Madrid

i'm not into saturday nite when all my brothers gather around..(=p) huhu..who cares ade shati bdanse ker, cengkerangrama ker, drama tamil ker (rajnikanth my fav..=p) asalkan mlm sab2 xkire la kul 9..11 mlm..mesti tgk EPL la, Spanish League la..pape tah sume yang berkaitan dgn bola..adoyai..aku bkn pe..aku ni puan yg xbrape minat tgk bola disepak2..hehe (i like 2 see the players, though =p) yup..even xminat pon aku kenal la pemain2 3 pasukan nih..(Pato, Raul, Gerard, Tores, Kaka..dll...shortlisted yg agak2 ensem jer) bkn sbb biye2 aku ske tgk bola..tp sbb terpakse dgr celoteh2 derg yg ske bola (mkn bola, minum bola, tdo bola).. yup..they're all crazy bout their own fav team..siap pki jersi team msg2 2 yg xthn 2..hehe. siap beli towel 2..aduh kalo puan bgaye dgn brand2 GUCCI, PUCCI, dll..(=p) dorg pon dgn brand team msg2..adoyai..

kalo team dorg kalah mule la bising2..(time 2 la mak aku myucuk..ala..da kalah 2 tukar je la team lain..) oish..pas2 mrh la depa..mulala kuarkan kesetiaan kpd raja n ngara la, keluhuran perlembagaan la..hehe... as for me..aku minat gitu2 jer..(bile xde cite menarik tgk la bola..) tp aku prefer tgk baseball or ragbi la..(alang2 injured patah kaki main bola biar patah sume tulang main ragbi..=p) luckily Mr. Z not into futbol that much..(main bola jer tp xla fanatic)  but when it comes 2 PS..nothing i can mention (xnmpk da awek kt sblh sbb bz dok maen game..) Oh! Lelaki..

Salt n Pepper

phew..long holidays i guess..hehe..ari raye korban + cuti selangor..hehe..IM LOVIN' IT..=p. yup..byk yg berlaku last week..but dtg2 lab trus cek result...alhamdulillah..(even xdpt 4plet..hehe) tp beyond my xpectations la..ingat kan dpt worse than last sem..but it's better actually.. (i'm not that optimistic person..n mind u..i'm not) aku slalu jer pk bende2 ngarut..means bad things will happen 2 me.. coz sumtimes i think..i'm not worth at all 2 get all the beautiful things in the world. but..thankful..until recently nothing SO BAD happen to me..

n my Queen Bee came back 2 me..huhu..really mish her la..she's my BFF after all..(pas most of my BFFs got married la..) slalu kalo ade bende yg menghanginkan kepala hotak haku, aku slalu la mbebel sorg2 dgn die..hehe (wait! bkn ke aku mmg ske bermonolog dgn diri sdiri? hehe =p)

.:Twilight..again..:.

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well..within my bz time..of coz i can make it (watch the movie! LOL!) I still didnt finish read the book but i am so yearning to watch it..(n it's worth..4 entertaining my heart la..whilst my work..NOPE) yup..it wasnt exactly the same as the book (here n  there) but who cares..i do enjoyed it a lot..wasnt bored me after all..n ade byk la yg dtambah n dkurgkan..but hey..it's amazing..even i couldnt give 10 out of 10..at least i can give it 9..=D cant wait 2 read another series from the book..phew..(i think i'm so into the book this time)

Women arent complex creatures...or are they??

WORDS WOMEN USE

(1) Fine:  This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2)  Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3)  Nothing:  This is the calm before the storm . This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4)  Go Ahead:  This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5)  Loud Sigh:  This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6)  That's Okay:  This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7)  Thanks:  A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' ... that will bring on a
'whatever').

(8)  Whatever:  Is a woman's way of saying  ____ YOU!

(9)  Don't worry about it, I got it:  Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.




(taken from internet..recently)

.:twilight:.

yeey..really lurve this novel so much!! havent watch the movie yet but love the book so much..n mind u it's the 1st english movie i ever bought. novel melayu adalah beli gak (huhu sape kt aku xmyokong industri novel tempatan..still supporting local..=p) novel ramlee awang murshid my fav la sbb ber'genre'kan thriller n penyiasatan..gee..i wasnt into detective novel but like sumthg different way from love story lar..

n..sambung sal twilight nih..aku tgk la komen2 sape yg da tgk (ms tgh dwload cite ni lah..hehe) n sum were satisfied, sum were not, sum said the book way better..n sum other thoughts lar..well for me..neither can say gud nor bad as i havent watch it. (notes: i'm not a fanatic-movie-watcher..juz 2 fade away my boredom..) owh yer..aku start ske tgk cite berdsrkan buku pas tgk ayat2 cinta..(n mind u..i cried for a while watching that movie..phew..) n after that aku start bc novel 2..wow! no wonder it's the bestseller novel after all lar..

yup..sum parts of me enjoy watching sad stories, horror movies but never want the happy-ending 1..y?? 4 me..things will never be in same ending everytime..u know like..live happily ever after. well ya..i do love fairy tales when i was a kid n yet till now but sumhow 4 me..it juz a story that u read b4 u go 2 sleep. n..happy ending will only blew u a fantasy 2 live ur life whilst in real life..life's harder..