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The perks of chubbiness

( the entry has nothing to do with the title. I'm just being me after all -_-" predictable)

Recently, my bride-to-be-lil-sis wassup-ed me. I knew there was something happened when she contact me. Not that I don’t like it, I love it so much. With her, I can be myself. We always gossiping and updating each other. 

Owh, she’s the one who wanted me to be her bridesmaid. Heh. It’s a big NO honey. I’m just too old for that sort of stuff. She told me she wanted to call her engagement off. No, I wasn’t surprise at all. I knew that stage, when the other side didn’t show as many interest as we did (in the preparations etc) we will get mad. As if they didn’t want this thing (marriage) to be happen and the one who put all their best is US. Ok..this I’m referring to people who will get married. Heh.

So, I adviced her to calm down, try to reminiscing all the good times they had shared together within their nine years ++ being in love and still. This is the crucial step in their relationship. But she scolded me for taking sides of her fiance. Huhu. Actually, it wasn’t my purpose. I knew that guy will take a really good care of her. Nothing for sure but I do trust my instinct. And she said apart of my hustle-hectic-love-life, I still keep cool. I tried my best not to meroyan ;p. 

For being real, I’m not cool. I was weak and fragile. I was, back then and now. There’s a say that you don’t know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. Owh by the way, I didn’t accept the job offer. I called the company last Friday said sorry and told them I have a better offer, which I haven’t. They said they will try to offer me another deal and make me to reconsider on Monday and they didn’t call back today so I guess I’m not their best candidates anymore. Heh! Well, better searching for another job. I won’t allow myself working in the same company anymore for consecutive years to come. -_-“

The decision

-_-“ I’ve got a new job oppurtunity. But frankly, i was undelighted to accept it. Berat hati. The salary is better than my current job and I’m sure it’s level of stress will also be double. It’s not the main issue here. I know myself and I’m 100 % sure I’ll handle the stress within my professional level –pfff- It’s not the job but it’s me. 

Truthfully I was not brave enough to leave my comfort zone. I knew I told myself to move on but deep down when there’s a chance I wasn’t happy to do so. Ooowhh..how pathetic I am? How can I move on when part of me is missing? How I wish I am strong.. how I yearn to be strong.. how I need to be strong.. such an idiot for me to let go the golden chance. 

When they offered me the job i was speechless. Yup, I didn’t expect to be the one –didn’t have study background nor familiar with some-sort of terms in that particular area- but I do have experiences. I still didn’t give them any answer. Still in dilemma. LOL.

Must make a decision. Argggghhhh!!!!!

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not-so-long-holiday

Seronok balik kampung. Dari bercuti seminggu aku amek extra cuti sehari. Heh

Makan Besar sempena tahun baru~heh~ gambo siakap stim tak sempat snap

sebab da kena terkam dengan jerung -_-"

Kittens..cuteness overload!! yang kaler oren gemok tu name die Ichigo

a.k.a Garfield sebab die sangat gemok dan malas -_-" haha

Sekarang da start bekerja. huh..mood post-holiday sila blah jauh-jauh..shuhhhh..

L.O.V.E

“The worst feeling in the world is when you know that you both love each other but still you just can’t be together” from twitter.

Kids define love –

“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.” – Cindy – age 8

“My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.” – Clare – age 6

“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.” – Elaine-age 5.

Still, love is subjective.

Rasa kasihan sangat kat seorang retis ni. At the tender age of 24 (tender?) she forced to face this sort of dilemma. Looking back to 2007, I was in her shoes when things happened to me. (Wait, 2007 -wasn’t me around her age at that time, was I?) But mine was better as I am no singer -better yet mylife wasn’t in the spotlight every now and then ;p. Nope-there’s no counter-attack statement or u-tube video uploaded.. but the scenario was more or like the same. 

It hurts. Was and will always. Believe me. The scar will go but the pain will linger. The misunderstanding, the heartache, the humiliation –will be our motivation to keep being stronger. Nope, am not her fan nor follow her life story but for me, we shouldn’t be judgemental. The ones who suffer is her –her alone. And maybe her significant one –the way he gave his statement, for me, really showed his unstable emotion, or maybe that’s who he is, i don’t know. Yes, she’s being immature to upload some sort of video but try to understand people who in that situation CANNOT think normally as their heart was in such pain –The kind of pain that can’t ever be talked about. You have to experience it, and then judge yourself. 

I am not taking anybody sides –not her parents, her loved one nor herself. Just let her be alone for a while to clear her minds and consciences. She will make a lot of stupid judgement for herself in time being, but in the end if they were meant to be then they will. If not, she will know. It’s good for us to pray the best for them. 

As for me, I am still battling. The war is not over yet, more heartache, pain will appear in my life. Still, running from family wasn’t the best decision (mine case was vice versa LOL). My family will always being my strength pillar -they fight for me and never let me lose this war, even the one who always losing is yours truly. 

p/s reporter pun jangan la wat propaganda lagi. Bio le dorang bincang elok2. Rimas la reporter kepochi yang kdg2 bagi soklan minta penampar!!

p/p/s Dia selalu ada untuk kita.. hanya pada Dia tempat kita mengadu

Kisah di pagi hari

Masa: pagi-pagi mamai

Tempat: opis yang terchenta

Media: Wassup wassup ;p

Watak:

         BTB (Bride-to-be)

         CC(Cikna comey..ahahaha..Cikna Chubby -_-“)

BTB: Kak,nanti datang ek bulan *** ni..

CC: owh BTB kawen ek..ok2

BTB: akak jadi pengapit saya ek

CC: hahahaha... akak da tua la dek non. Da nak masuk kategori andartu

BTB: Xla..akak muda jelita lagi pe

CC: taknak la malu.. pengapit lagi tua dari pengantin.

BTB: ala takpe..akak ada masa lagi nak approved tawaran ni ek

CC: Insya Allah..tapi BTB cari gak la pengapit muda tau. 

-hah! Tengok nak masuk 3series pun ade market nak jadik pengapit lagi. Heh

P/S: always the bridesmaid never the bride...pffff

Tapi itu dulu

Tapi itu dulu -Amy Mastura


Ya dulu aku katakan cinta
Ya dulu aku katakan sayang
Ya dulu aku katakan rindu
Padamu Selalu Hanya padamu

Ya dulu aku rajin merayu
Ya dulu tak berhenti berjanji
Ya dulu aku tak pernah ingkar
Untukmu selalu hanya untukmu

Lalu kini kau datang
Hatimu kalau bimbang
Meminta ku mengulang perasaan

Sayang itu dulu
Dulu saatku tertarik padamu
Kini kamu tak seperti yang dulu
dulu hanya kau getarkan hatiku

Tapi itu dulu
Saat aku kejar kejar dirimu
Bermimpi kau bisa saja denganku
Sayang dulu kau acuhkan cintaku
Sayang itu dulu

Comel kan alagu baru Amy ni. Rentak sangat catchy and lirik pun sangat simple. Sesuai nak dikategori kan Umum. Haha. Amy pun comel je macam budak-budak. Gosip pun takde, imej bersih and takde kontroversi macam retis sekarang ni. I loike banyak-banyak tau. Satu lagi retis puan yang aku suka sangat ialah cik Wawa Zainal. Owh lesung pipit dia sangat ohsem! Siap follow dia lagi kat insta..tapi dia jarang nak upload gambar. Sigh...

awet muda Amy nih

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Menjeruk rasa

Teringat kata-kata seorang forumer “kalau seseorang itu bukan menantu pilihan, pergi masjid pun orang kata menjalang. Kalau menantu pilihan, duduk mengangkang pun dikatakan bidadari turun dari syurga.. malanglah orang bukan menantu pilihan. Terpaksa hidup dalam ketabahan yang dipaksa-paksa”.

 

Kalau menantu aku, aku paksa gak dia jadi pilihan aku. Heh! 

Kita tak boleh paksa orang untuk berubah. Tapi kita boleh je kalau nak berubah.

After all, you gain what you sow. 

p/s: bahasa agak kasar sebab mengekalkan keaslian ayat-ayat forumer tersebut.