Thursday, September 8, 2011

Aging and Pride

Woman and age.. do you know a simple question like “how old are you?” might consider as life-threatening? LOL. Me? I used to tell people I’m 18 all the time. but not at this tender age of late 20s (see… it’s a taboo to tell your age ;p ) when people ask me what’s my age..i would tell my real age. Its an honour to be this old (well old is cruel word- I preferred senior ~_^ ).

And I don’t mind if I were buying something and the salesgirl called me “Kak” (or Sis). Even it’s obvious the salesgirl looks older than me. It’s ok. It’s an honour when people called you such a way ~smile~ I presume they do respect me ..(just my expectations). And I am most likely feel honoured when a man called me “Kak” not “adik “ or younger names. (agasshi is acceptable..haha) for me..when a man called you “adik” or “dik” seems like he can makes fun of me coz I’m younger. It’s a big no to me. Here..even the colleagues 3-4 years older than me..i would call myself as “kakak” when I’m talking to them. Sound serious? Huhu.. yesh I can like you as my younger brother or sister but never the eldest. For me my biological brother is my only big bro…while encik/ahjussi is my only oppa.. (mode: gegeli). Big sister.. would I? NO.

But everything seems like a joke when my aunt came visit us at my home during last hari raya. Yesh..I am pixie compared to my other family members. Her son asked me my age. I smiled and said “27…but I do look young izzit?” (I was joking hokey.. coz I can sense the next question will be bout tying-some-knot..huh) and that my aunt said..”yalah..i was going to say the same..you haven’t age since last I saw u. maybe coz u look cute as school girl” when was the last time i saw her..i'm not sure but surely within my high school year. ROFL.. And she asked whether I’m joking bout being same age as my cousin who now has 3 kids…(whilst sum1 and her “bff” seemed annoyed when people keep saying me being younger than 27-looks compared to her bff a.k.a her daughter who older than me)

Silly izzit? There’s a time when people mistakenly assume I’m a kid when hearing my voice on the phone or asking whether I have an IC or not (wait..do I look like pendatang haram? LOL), and stuffs.. but I know I wasn’t so fresh, so innocent yet so fragile as teenager. I’d through a lot during my childhood, continue in my teenager life and now I can proudly say I’m a grown woman.

P/s to sum1 and her “bff”;

Everything you’ve said, you’ve done to me.. I’ll keep it tight in my heart.. No, it’s not revenge, just a reminiscent of my tiny heart. And doing all that nasty things u did to me to other people just showing how rotten you are. Your daughter will be sum1 wife (if not sooner, later then) and to duplicate you in such a way surely makes her a “wonderful” person.