Yesterday was hell –literally
-_-“ maybe it was PMS –duhh! Maybe it was me myself. The day before I got news
–a bad one which change my life forever –well not entirely forever but still
huh…sigh! I knew it all along but it was a wake up call for me. Suddenly I have
to change my entire living plan. Harusla bersedih sampai tertidur –yesh I am
that kind of woman..sedih sampai tak henggat la kononnya.. hehe!
If my life were a fairytale
obviously I would be that evil witch people hate the most and wish never ever
existed! Contrary indeed. Last raya I felt so much blessed.
People-who-hate-me-for-no-concrete-reason-from-i-was-a-lil-girl finally shedded
their tears while hugged and kissed me. I was shocked. As much as I hated them
for treating me wrongly I hugged them back. And I was relieved. Not because
finally they like me –for-some-reason-which-i-don’t-even-know- but in my heart
I knew I was able to forgive them and ask for forgiveness.
It is a blessed. Indeed. And it
feels so much better now knowing we holding no grudge against each other –at
least. But what’s my life without a cloud-stormy-rain? It ain’t easy.
Well.. I’ll just go with the
flow. It’s a bit whimsical but I am sure I can handle it just like I always do.
And at the end after all this messy-terrible-things had happened, I can give a
pat on my shoulder. For being strong, determine and for being myself, honestly.
Already prepared my resign letter.
I give myself 3 months and yes it means by end of this year. Sometimes I do
wonder if I let myself free will I really be happy or getting worse? Or should I
do something that I really like and lead my life the way I want? Melodramatically.
Whatever happens happens. Only God
knows why and the best.
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