and i thought i was going to forget u...

10 o’clock this morning i had an interview with company R. i do felt nervous..(like butterflies in stomach.. needed to go to toilet..etc <---- nervous symptoms i guess..huhu) but i told myself those butterflies, they have got to be murdered by any chance.. n earlier this morning, i kept repeating myself begged encik to not allow me to go for that interview..but he just ignored me as expected..lol..(i have a serious issue with someone there who eventually will become part of me??)

since the company also, like, wanted-so-badly-for-me-to-attend-it (as they calling from Saturday till 930 this morning) so I just let go the-feeling-of-unpleasant-to-certain-people.. well..when I arrived there.. I had to wait for a girl who came earlier. (luckily only one person ahead) since this is my second time here (interview) I didn’t feel much pressure compared to previous one …haha… while am waiting I grabbed magazines there. Well..its more to engineering…pfff what am I expecting from engineering company..lol (laugh at myself)

I didn’t pay much attention bout what I was reading until I finally came across an interesting article (for me of course) something bout bioengineering, nanotechnology and most importantly how they implement those two in treating some bacterial infection (which I forgot the name) and in process to proceed it to the higher level; drug.. they actually wanted it to be user friendly which can be found in daily usage/ toiletaries n stuff..

Oh my.. I talked to myself.. I left all this like almost a year.. I didn’t know how much I missed all the researches, the knowledge, the sciences, the biology itself..  I knew im so into designing drug.. I even had my 3 years constructing a hypothetical pathway.. (ok..i lied..the pathway took about a year to complete..another 1 year am mining information..another 1 year full of rejection..huhu)..

Well.. now what I can do is completed writing journal and submit my thesis..prepare for viva (hopefully!) and then graduated as master student.. its like a dream for me.. yet its in my list to-be-achieved before I can even think about tie-what-so-ever knot..

ari ni nyer kesah

ari ni lewat dtg opis..kesahnyer umah xde air dari semalam membawa ke pagi ni (n maybe lewat ptg or mlm baru ade air) pagi ni i mandi kat masjid..huhu..teringat lak zaman dok kat seksyen 1 BBB, selalu gak xde air. so pe lg mandi kat masjid or kolej2 berhampiran la.. -nomad gitu-

ari ni rase sedih n tension.. kesahnyer bese la. tension dgn diri sendiri.. xleh nk gurau sikit mula la angin dalam badan nak keluar -haha..bukan kentut2- tapi kadang2 fikir la gak gurau tu bertempat ke tak..haishhh.. lantak la. papehal nk jadi..jadi la.. xkisah da

ari ni tak pakai baju kurung..kesahnyer sal da terlangsung mandi kat masjid td, i pakai jer t-shirt (xberkolar..lol) n jeans..plus selipar crocs cap pasar malam.. hahaha..ramai la terkejut -eh pe ke hal cik hana pakai tshirt selain ari sabtu?- yela..selama ni cam sopan2 gitu..ari ni wah dahla datang lmbt, pakaian sempoi.. -huk..ade aku kesah?


ari ni turun dari keta nampak ramai bangla dok jalan dengan baldi...kesahnyer sini pon xde air..mujur kat opis ni ade tangki air lagi..kalo x..merana gak la.. kol org JBA katenyer air da sampai..tp area2 ke tganu ni lum ke udara lg..huhu nanges sgt. sgt berharap la balik umah kang da ade air sal baju da rendam dari semalam.. haru!

ari ni dan semalam... -background song kau yang tak mengerti....by teja-


lol..pe kes ko ni emosi2 cik na wei? kalo ko tny org tu jwpn yang pasti adelah.." ADE AKU KESAH?"
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sepetang di pelabuhan

haiyak! hahaha cm tajuk novel cintun jerk.. kali ni entri bergambo..suke-suki di hari wesak.. ^________^

ekekeke..sal gune kamera fon yg cikai so kene letak gmbo small jer (kalo x t nmpk ketul2 jerawat) lol! ni gmbar2 before kene halau balik dengan encik (alasan da maghrib2 port akan jem) ceh..walhal jeles la 2 i nk posing2 maut terbaring kat pantai...hahahaha <-----kekejian!

till then...

warkah berlagu pilu

Alhamdulillah… *senyum-senyum*

Permohonan untuk tambah masa sem ni diluluskan sudah…lepas hampir 4 bln berhempas pulas *fax sana sini..tipon orang itu ini* akhirnya mak sampaikan khabar gembira ni semalam *sal surat dr Uni kat melaka kan..sampai tak lena tidur malam* hihihi..

Seronok? Sangat la kan.. lepas ni nak konpem kan dengan Uni sal kes I ni.. pastu leh la anta notis penghantaran tesis..plus abstract plus journal *omg omg paper xsiap2 lg*  tp xpe..yang penting daftar sem dulu then baru anta notis and pape yang dikehendaki..

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~mungkinkah I leh konvo tahun depan? Smbil mata bersinar2…~ lalalalala

cemburu bertempat

Ari jumaat…yeay! Esok cuti ^_______________^ (hamboi..senyum lebo..)

Sumhow..this tiny little feeling keep popping in my heart…ddduuuhhh..

I know I am some kind of weirdo since I was a small child.. (lol..ok..just kidding)

There’s a voice whispering as m looking for people profiles or status in facebook..

A pretty girl who happened to break-up with her ex seems to have a new relationship –am not jealous

Some old schoolmates finally tying their knots –still am not jealous..but happy for them

Some friends had their wedding of the year and look so gorgeous –am not jealous at all

Then there are friends who living abroad and enjoying their life –well..they are lucky..but still..im not jealous

But when…

Some friends had their viva or submitted their thesis or.. they finally had their master convocation… -well hell yeah I am totally jealous!

I mean how could they possible finished their master whilst im on the other hand? Im so pissed off with myself for not being able to finish it according to my plan.. hello? I’m 27, I started my master at the tender age of 24 and it took me almost 3 years now!  It just a master degree..how could I possibly not finished it when technically all I did was just analyzed and built pathway!!!!!

Owh my.. this is not supposed to happen..not to me..not to anybody.. m hoping someday me and my friends could breaking free from all this hectic and pathetic situation..