droplets..

no its not raining here.. but currently listening to colbie caillat -droplets. yeah in life we often meet ppl who will leave a mark in our life..our heart. n the hardest part is we cant tell ppl how much we care bout that person when they left us. we cant tell them how much they meant for us or how much we need them in our life..

 idk if thats the best things i shud do..but im leaving u.know that it hurts me as bad as it hurts u. but i cant continue living like this..

sometimes..

omg..this mean girl is back..ekekekeke..coz its hari raya so slmt hari raya maaf zahir batin. but as human we cant control what will comes from us ..or had came..huhu. n i felt sorry for sum1 who "accidently" got a "gift" from me today...aww..poor lady its u who want it..yet i keep it for u for a really long time.. btw.. actually i am a good girl but this critical situation that i held for my entire lifetime really taught me to be super strong esp when facing that certain "type" of people.. who cares if i didnt get married now? who cares if i keep studying until m grew old? do i ask for their money? BIG N-O! yesh my golden-ultimate target in my life is to get my PHD..n i m hoping to become prof emeritus one day..is that a big prob to u? did i ever bother ur super-pretty-daughter fiancee? did i ever had a glance of ur big-"kapochi"-hubby? i didnt..did i? so i dont understand why u guys keep telling everybody that im like this im like that? hurm..on 2nd thought.. i didnt think  m  so glamour  until u guys keep talking bout me did i?  

well..enuff for that unstable-emo post..hihi..know what..i have a list of things i wanna do b4 i settle down with who-ever-that-sum-1-will-b.. n yesh..if god-willing i will done all that b4 im turning 30.. (owh my...i do realised how old matured i am now..lol) still long way to go..n lots of things to do..juz follow the path that lies ahead.. as long as i didnt allow my heart controls my head..

till then..

welcome back..n a denial..

hihi..m back after so many months.n dont expect so many stories from me as im juz an ordinary girl who leads a simple life tho its fasting month already n hopefully things will get better even best for all of us m a bit sad coz sum1 is leaving me..but i do wish its only a matter of time.. if not..well i do have to keep on moving with or without that person..huh *sigh* in time being i juz pretend that that particular person still with me even we drifted apart..huhu.. 

its good tho..i lost almost 10kg within 3-4 months n idk what ive been doing..hihi n i do miss my frens esp geng kapak sumbing.. this fasting month sure reminded me of the time we broke the fast together..aww..so many memories tho.. i do wanna experience it all..but the sweetest things only..those that involved dramas, heart feelings..sorry..no-can-do..  

hope to have a chance to blog again.. n do miss sum1.. again..slmt berpose sume ^^

  

      

~no matter~

healing..

=) after a while.. sy kembali ke blk n tgk pokok bunga hiasan sy udah nazak..sume daun2 nye telah mati kecuali ade 3 helai daun yg agak parah tp masih hijau.. hurm..proses buang daun2 mati telah sy lakukan smlm smase ujan lebat (ati sy pun sedang hujan semalam..nanges!) skrg ni pokok yg mempunyai pasu kecik yg berwarna pink sedang mengalami proses penyembuhan... hrp2 sgt ia akan segar smula.. =)

hihi..owh yer.. earlier this month was our anniversary (me n my bintang hati a.k.a mr.z ) hihi..wishing us another 9 years together...n another 9 years..n another till death do us part.. =) well..my plan xjd nk wat surprise..nway.. still happy bout it.. =) 

till then..

chill!

xpunya sape..

sy hanya mampu bertabah.. smoga sume ini menjadikan sy lebih matang n berhati2 dlm kehidupan.. sy xsalahkan sesiapa hny diri sdiri.. glad even my heart bleed terribly, i still can wipe my tears n smile! deep down inside me i know my heart actually broken into million pieces at any single words that he possibly accused! tp xpela.. sesape pon leh ckp pe je yg mereka inginkan.. human rights kan.. sape la sy utk tentukan ape yg harus diperkatakan oleh org lain.

sok sy ade intebiu stage 3 SD. yup..i'm driving all the way 2 subang..alone! (huhu...yup it's soo lame to others but for me..sy xpnah drive ke sana sblm ni maka ye..ni ade la ujian terbesar wat sy utk drive bersendirian, TIDAK SESAT, n perlu smpi seawal 8.15 ke destinasi yg jln nye mmg popular dgn JEM! ) puas la cik sue n hisam dok terangkan jln pd sy...terima kasih kamu ber2! hopefully this time sy fokus n xsesat.. =) 

wish me luck!! =)