that woman

One woman loves you.
That woman loves you wholeheartedly.
She follows you around like a shadow everyday,
That woman is laughing and crying.

Just How..How much more do I have to gaze at you alone.
This love that came like the wind, This love like a beggar.
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just come a little nearer..a little more..
If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back.
I who love you am next to you now.
That woman is crying.


That woman now is very careful
Therefore, to learning a method of smile
Even can not talk with best friend … too much
So the woman’s heart is always crying
So that woman…is loving you…
Such a fool. Because it is such a fool
can you hug me?
I also want to be loved, my dear
Day by day in my heart, only in my heart…
just like this calling you
That woman, is still in your side


That woman… is me, do you know ?
Or You know it but still act this ?
You really do not know,because you´re a big fool …
Just How..How much more do I have to gaze at you alone.
This love that came like the wind, This love like a beggar.
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just come a little nearer..a little more..
If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back.
I who love you am next to you now.
That woman is crying.










That woman -ost secret garden 
mode: ke laut at the moment 

Until the time is through

Not yet. Not ready. Not surrender.

Numb.

Talk to myself.

Be patience with me in time being.

Still me. Still need it. Didn’t care of others.

Yet.. as time goes by..

Will prepare for it.

Still not this time.   

Quick Fever

Maybe it’s a heat-shock. Maybe it’s a symptom of fatigue. Or maybe just cause. Maybe I don’t need reasons to be sick. It’s just me.

I often want to be a superwoman. Independently do everything on my own. Haven’t got a good rest just a lame reason for not doing anything. Well, it’s just a thought. Who knew a thought is just a thought until you face the consequences.

I didn’t listen to my body nor believe in whatever it can or can’t. I just don’t know the limit. Suddenly it crashed. Yes, I felt numb for a while; my body started aching at the neurons, light headache and I can’t breath in my normal room temperature (which I always set at 28 Celsius).

At the end of the day, it was me all alone who facing the pain. This is it. This is the end. I have to stop not listening to my body and start to believe in everything it can takes, the boundaries itself. I used to believe if we keep pampering ourselves, we wouldn’t be strong enough to face anything. But I was wrong. To be able to face everything, first we must trust ourselves. Without trust, anything else doesn’t matter.

Perhaps I just need rest. And yes after taking a day off, pampering myself –not doing overload work- I feel refresh. Going to work, finish the unsettled tasks, and happily, being myself as usual.

And today - remains the unhealthy-sick-bore-to-death-me again. LOL! Who am I to fool? Obviously I need six-months-holiday twice a year.. ~huh~

Day Ten : 10 final words

One word..

If u want to be happy then be..

Day Nine : 10 ways to win your heart

Seriously..i don’t know.. but if I happened to like u..then u’ve got the way..LOL

Day Eight : 10 of your favourite songs

-mi vida sin ti – el original

-that man –hyun bin

-move like jagger –maroon 5
-today was a fairy tale -taylor swift
-more than words- extreme
-my favourite mistake-sheryl crow
-ku menunggu -rossa

-erm..currently listening to Korean'S song from soundtrack of various drama ..ngehngehngeh

Day Seven : 10 important people

-5 important person (my family) + encik = 6

-myself

-still figure out 3 more ;p

Day Six : 10 items you can't live without

-encik comot –my car-
-white gold ring ^_^

-patrick –used to be fluffy one time ago ;p

-phone –a gift from mom..

-wallet –also a gift from mom

-notebook

-bracelet –a gift from mom

-pencil case –lots of pens there

-food
-water...LOL

Day Five : 10 wishes

one biggest wish is enough ^_^

~For people I love and care to live happily without hesitation and crucial sickness..~