::ever after??::

/hihi

it's quite raining lately.. n here too in my tiny little heart. but the rain was totally different from the real world. sometimes it's raining heavily but sometimes it's cloudy but never the shine.. apparently i'm could see the sparkle of light.. since i'd give up hope i feel much better in life we always wanted the best for us doesnt matter if we worth it or not. the important thing is we MUST been better than anyone around us then we could be proud of what we had achieved.

it's like a big tree which grew taller everyday and prevent the light from other trees. the tree must be tall enough to produce a lot of fruit and be the one which could expose itself. but the tree often forgot those small plants which grew slowly under it's shadow are alive too and hardly survive on the ground. but who cares? my life's is crucial than anybody else and cant everybody see that the one who lead the hard life is me, the big tree? i need ppl to water me, give me damn good fertilizer n take a gud care of me.. owh big tree..yes u r the one who everyone keep talking about, the goddess tree of all..u provide shelter to ppl and give them delicious food for them.. n no one cant deny it..

but for me.. it doesnt matter if i'm not the big tree n i prefer to be the small creeping plant that survives on my own feet. n i'm proud of it even my life's little harsh right now but it's ok..that's what makes me a human being. owh about my cloudy conscious.. well it's about to shine again slowly but surely.. time will heals n need a lot of determination too.. /please

/bye

cik single yang kiut miut /blush