new year..new resolution?

tomorrow will be the last day of 2009.. hopefully new year will bring a lot of joys for us..n yang paling utama biarla keberkatan menjadi pedoman hidup..waima dalam melakukan pe pun..

regards,
a.l

ujan, payung dan seseorg itew..

sy selalu mengharapkan seseorg memayungi sy tatkala ujan lebat.. hurm..yer sy sebenarnya boleh memayungi diri sendiri tapi sgt malas melakukannya bila seseorg itew berada berdekatan. tapi satu ketika waktu ujan  renyai seseorg itew terlupa membawa payung utk sy n dia terlupa sebenarnya sy sedang kehujanan. sy menunggu begitu lama tp die ttp xmuncul2. sy sgt sedey sbb sy sgt mengharapkan kehadiran seseorg itew di waktu sy kehujanan. sy harap sgt jika die terlupa membawa payung utk sy sekurg2nye die akan dtg dan berjln bersame2 meredah ujan.. tp die ttp xdtg..

yer..ujan itew xlebat..tp jika meredahnya tanpa payung atau baju ujan sy tetap akan basah bila smpi di umah.. bila seseorg itew tidak dtg, selepas seketika sy menunggu sy mula jalan perlahan2..smbil memandang ke belakang dgn kerap dgn harapan seseorg itew muncul..(with a warmth smile perhaps!) tp tiapkali jua sy hampa bila die tiada.. jd sy berhenti memandang ke belakang n mula langkah dgn sedikit laju.. di setiap langkah minda sy mulai berfikir dgn logik n waras.. alangkah baiknya jika ketika itu sy mempunyai payung sdiri..sy pasti xkan kebasahan, n mungkin esok sy xkn selsema. jika sy xmengharap payung seseorg sy mungkin xpatah hati bila seseorg itew terlupa memayungi sy.. n jika sy xtunggu seseorg itew mungkin ketika ini sy telah pun smpi dgn selesa di umah.. ye..sy sedar sy membazir ms menunggu seseorg itew tp itu telah pun sy lakukan n sy xkan dpt putarkan ms yg telah terbazir selama sy menunggu.. tp sy xmenyesal sbb sy xmungkin dpt menunggu seseorg yg lain utk memayungi sbb sy penat utk memilih payung lain (walaupun coraknyer comel n berkaler purple...ke?)

smpi di umah sy telah pun membuat keputusan yg sy xkan lg mengharapkan seseorg itew dtg memayungi sy xkira la cuaca ape pun.. sy harus membawa payung sdiri utk kesenangan sy jua.. di kala ati sy telah ttp pendirian sebegitu seseorg itew telah memberikan payungnya n berharap walaupun die terlupa atau sgaje lupa .. payung nya dpt sy gunakan waktu sy ujan atau panas.. hurm.. sy telah konpius dgn pendirian sy n kebaikan seseorg itew memberikan payungnyer..

::ever after??::

/hihi

it's quite raining lately.. n here too in my tiny little heart. but the rain was totally different from the real world. sometimes it's raining heavily but sometimes it's cloudy but never the shine.. apparently i'm could see the sparkle of light.. since i'd give up hope i feel much better in life we always wanted the best for us doesnt matter if we worth it or not. the important thing is we MUST been better than anyone around us then we could be proud of what we had achieved.

it's like a big tree which grew taller everyday and prevent the light from other trees. the tree must be tall enough to produce a lot of fruit and be the one which could expose itself. but the tree often forgot those small plants which grew slowly under it's shadow are alive too and hardly survive on the ground. but who cares? my life's is crucial than anybody else and cant everybody see that the one who lead the hard life is me, the big tree? i need ppl to water me, give me damn good fertilizer n take a gud care of me.. owh big tree..yes u r the one who everyone keep talking about, the goddess tree of all..u provide shelter to ppl and give them delicious food for them.. n no one cant deny it..

but for me.. it doesnt matter if i'm not the big tree n i prefer to be the small creeping plant that survives on my own feet. n i'm proud of it even my life's little harsh right now but it's ok..that's what makes me a human being. owh about my cloudy conscious.. well it's about to shine again slowly but surely.. time will heals n need a lot of determination too.. /please

/bye

cik single yang kiut miut /blush

utk diri sendiri (^_^)

/hihi

it's been 2 days now i came early to lab and tried to finish my writing .. due to my new resolution perhaps..haha.. well..i decided not to have any holidays as i HAVE to finish this precious thesis b4 new year.. i dont know about other ppl but 4 me it's a must!! (sgt bertegas dlm hal ini ) besides, i didnt have any plan to entertain myself..apart from attending numbers of wedding n engagement ceremony (hikhik..it's a ceremony as long as there are lots of food..yeay! ) n team bachelor-bachelorette pun ade plan pas new year.. makna bulan ni bulan bekoje la kan

k la..ckit je nk merapu..sbb nk siapkan keje n hopefully can go back b4 5pm..sbb xnk jem kt hway t.. hway pon jem kan..hazab!

 /bye

Cik Single yang kiut miut

all's well, end well..ke?

/hihi i watched New Moon yesterday! yeay! n the movie was totally awesome! n cant wait 2 see another twilight movies. n i admit that when i 1st read new moon novel..i was like soooooo unsatisfied with jacob..( i was alwiz on Edward Cullen's side..hikhik..) but then when i watched the movie, i kinda like how sweet he was, stayed with Bella thru her broken-hearted phase.. (n Edward looked so awkward with messy style --> on 2nd thought cm drug addict je aku tgk.. /hmm sal lak ms 1st muvee die sgt la ensem) i juz loooveee the movie n dont care what ppl might say bout it.. i like the sounds of those gorgeous werewolf, the desperate-broke-up between Ed n Bell (n when they're reunite /blush absolutely -cant forget those beautiful red eyes of Jane a.k.a Dakota), sooo into Bell when she did cliff-jumping (that's so amazing /blur ) n the sweet Alice who really walk gracefully..(in spite of she's the shortest in the family /nobigdeal - she's still the cutest 1..hikhik.. so now u know who i like the most in Cullen's family /wahaha)

opps...i almost forgot to start modify my thesis..n mind u my SV had already asked for it about 2,3 weeks ago../sweat n this morning got another email from her that remind me to submit the results A.S.A.P /no.. I'm so in trouble when i didnt proceed my task but keep blogging as the excitement of watching New Moon really get me an adrenalin rush /wahaha.. k la.. till i have another ideas ~ chau!

 

/bye

Cik Single yg kiut miut /blush

 

uncertainty

 /hihi it's 1st dec 2009.. n previous years back..at this particular tender time..all i would do is get my diary n re-read it back (juz cant wait till new year 2 read it la kan =p) but not this year...writing my life in a beautiful book so-called diary seems like a history. but i do keep my old diaries from upper 2ndary school when i was @ mrsm muar which was like what..2-3 years ago (huh..sigh! what can i say i'm still stuck in my 18-year-old mind n soul =p) as i'm the one who tend to forget things that happened to me so i find it hard to remember what i felt at the exact time..haha..maybe that's one gud reason why i stop writing in my diary.. but next year resolution maybe.. MAYBE i'll write it back but who knows there might be another gud reason 4 me to not make the resolution comes true../wahaha

xde pe la yg menarik sgt bg cik single kot thn ni..juz perasaan berkobar2 utk abeskan master n masuk ke alam lain..(bukan alam barzakh la.. /sweat..tp ne la tau kan..:-s) disbbkan semangat yg berkobar2 2la cik single sedang menyiapkan tesis cik single ni yg da hmpir2 jd projek gajah putih dulu :D tp seperti bese la ttp nan ado /hmm hajat di hati nk la bercoti lame b4 new year (sbb puan SV akn blk ke msia bulan jan t /floor ) sbb 2 nk cpt2 tulis tesis..hikhik.. byk sgt plan next year tau termasukla nk traveling ke pulau2 berhampiran..mungkin ms itew cik single ni akan ditemani dgn dslr yg sgt2 cik single berkenan di hati /blush.. mungkinkah hasrat cik single ni akn tercapai? same2 la kite nnt kan yer..:))

okies la..gtg 1st..nk taip tesis lak ni..wis me lak yer..

/bye
Cik single yg kiut miut /blush