Bitter

I tried my best in everything. I do. But if those eyes can’t see it there’s nothing else I can do. Winning the heart wasn’t the main reason..but to be appreciated and treated like one should do. Anyhow..this woman is surrender.

It can’t be teach, can’t be learn nor copy. It should be deep inside the heart which one belongs –feel it and cherish it the moment it lasts. The longer these eyes see, the bigger such pain cause to bleed. Yet they can avoid it but for how much long must they suffer?

There shall be an empty spaces here..the loneliness for those years –if I let them appear they would stay forever. The specific path should be choose –may it will not cause so much misery nor more than it ever done to anyone else.

lil' wish

Hardly got any ideas to post anything. belek-belek folder gambar lame jumpa sesuatu.. Owh..ya..wishlist tahun ni da tercapai satu tapinya..hihi..bahagia jap.

I always wanted a dslr..but then I changed it to cybershot ~di sini~ (yeah..dreams are hard to achieve..lol) and I know someone will always granted my wish ~wee…maceh mak~

Lepas ni leh posing2 maut kat mane2 ke? Hihihi

it will rain..surely

November.

Almost the end of 2011. Slightly different from previous years as I live closer to him now. Lots of hectic, arguments, tears, fights, laughter and joys.  Yet I do enjoyed it. For him become my best friend, my foe, my big brother, my father, my family, seems everything in fairy tales.

OK I LIED.

There’s no fairy tales. LOL. If I happened to have daughters I won’t allow them to read any fairy tales story especially an ugly duckling and Alice in wonderland. ~even both are my favorites among the others~ haha.

There’s only a reality and destiny. Reality is what we are now at the particular moment, while destiny is the path that we choose at the exact moment when a choice has to be made at instant time. ~source: me, myself & co..lalalala~ you can dream as much as you like, as high as you can aim.. but sometimes it’s good to have a miniscule dream and achieve it yourself.

In my tiny little heart I have a dream that I know I can achieve it one day. Even the day seems so far away..perhaps if I put my heart and soul I can really achieve it. However, I am, somehow, met with the wrong person at the wrong time. But did I regret it? Nope. I didn’t get what I want but I found something else. A lesson of a life times how you should not repeat it at any moment in your life.

Surely it will rain sometimes. But if I keep holding onto my umbrella, I won’t be totally wet.

source: google..

that woman

One woman loves you.
That woman loves you wholeheartedly.
She follows you around like a shadow everyday,
That woman is laughing and crying.

Just How..How much more do I have to gaze at you alone.
This love that came like the wind, This love like a beggar.
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just come a little nearer..a little more..
If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back.
I who love you am next to you now.
That woman is crying.


That woman now is very careful
Therefore, to learning a method of smile
Even can not talk with best friend … too much
So the woman’s heart is always crying
So that woman…is loving you…
Such a fool. Because it is such a fool
can you hug me?
I also want to be loved, my dear
Day by day in my heart, only in my heart…
just like this calling you
That woman, is still in your side


That woman… is me, do you know ?
Or You know it but still act this ?
You really do not know,because you´re a big fool …
Just How..How much more do I have to gaze at you alone.
This love that came like the wind, This love like a beggar.
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just come a little nearer..a little more..
If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back.
I who love you am next to you now.
That woman is crying.










That woman -ost secret garden 
mode: ke laut at the moment 

Until the time is through

Not yet. Not ready. Not surrender.

Numb.

Talk to myself.

Be patience with me in time being.

Still me. Still need it. Didn’t care of others.

Yet.. as time goes by..

Will prepare for it.

Still not this time.