Monday, June 24, 2013

forever be miss



He came to our world unexpectedly. And he died terribly. He was hit by a car in front of our house. U can tell how much on earth the reckless driver speeding within the housing area and causing our cat to die. Obviously, it’s the housing area and should u not speeding in spite how expensive your car might be. Rest in peace our dear sweet Stokin..u will always be miss. And i admit, by the time i wrote about it i couldn’t stop crying. Surely i was not the one who fed him or bathed him or took care of his poops.. still i couldn’t stop crying, thus try to imagine how sad it was to a person whose in charges of everything, went through the lost of it. For us, the cats or fish are not just pets. Which ever or whomever came to our life and stayed are family.. our little family.

Once we get bonded with something it’s so hard to leave. And yes, here i am living my life, once again in same region of Malaysia. Maybe i spoke to soon about leaving here and back to my hometown for good. Definitely i was wrong. I got a better job offer here while doing part time job at my previous company –again, when i was about to resign, and this time for good, my previous bos persuaded me to keep working even as part timer –and how can i said no.. keeping my mind busy will definitely avoiding my heart to feel numb about anything that couldn’t-shouldn’t be happen in my life, not now not never. 

My bos was ok –well at least until he knew i was engaged –which i’m not obviously. I’m just using that lame excuse so people won’t pop up the golden questions. I found that sort of action merely as good as strong defense mechanism one should have –better yet people at the site are now believed that i’m having someone special and won’t bother to know things about me beside work. Sounds popular? Hahahahahaha.. it’s the flaw of being the only girl in the cabin and in the company i assume.

~just because we couldn’t be together doesn’t means i won’t love u~