forever be miss

He came to our world unexpectedly. And he died terribly. He was hit by a car in front of our house. U can tell how much on earth the reckless driver speeding within the housing area and causing our cat to die. Obviously, it’s the housing area and should u not speeding in spite how expensive your car might be. Rest in peace our dear sweet Stokin..u will always be miss. And i admit, by the time i wrote about it i couldn’t stop crying. Surely i was not the one who fed him or bathed him or took care of his poops.. still i couldn’t stop crying, thus try to imagine how sad it was to a person whose in charges of everything, went through the lost of it. For us, the cats or fish are not just pets. Which ever or whomever came to our life and stayed are family.. our little family.

Once we get bonded with something it’s so hard to leave. And yes, here i am living my life, once again in same region of Malaysia. Maybe i spoke to soon about leaving here and back to my hometown for good. Definitely i was wrong. I got a better job offer here while doing part time job at my previous company –again, when i was about to resign, and this time for good, my previous bos persuaded me to keep working even as part timer –and how can i said no.. keeping my mind busy will definitely avoiding my heart to feel numb about anything that couldn’t-shouldn’t be happen in my life, not now not never. 

My bos was ok –well at least until he knew i was engaged –which i’m not obviously. I’m just using that lame excuse so people won’t pop up the golden questions. I found that sort of action merely as good as strong defense mechanism one should have –better yet people at the site are now believed that i’m having someone special and won’t bother to know things about me beside work. Sounds popular? Hahahahahaha.. it’s the flaw of being the only girl in the cabin and in the company i assume.

~just because we couldn’t be together doesn’t means i won’t love u~

Wednesday again

form & waiting...

breakaway moment ~ sementara tunggu encik kuar opis

New darl!

Back to where I started –pff..melodramatic. Nope..I’m just here to finish my work and get paid for March’s salary. I’d promised myself that this week going to be my final week here and then I can happily sing ‘N SYNC song –Bye Bye Bye to this place. My boss offered me to work full time here on May –yes he had gave a month rest to me – and I just said I’ll think about it – but I’m not. I wanted to get out of this place the sooner the better.

I have an interview this evening. At retail store which is –can be consider as big at East coast region. Not hoping much but I’ll just do the best and be myself. Last year I did apply for numerous jobs but none was called for interview. I’m a bit lucky this year perhaps. Was called for interview once and actually got the job then I, voluntarily resign –thanks to myself. But I believe everything has written for us. We just need to go with the flow.

Owh by the way..encik has gave me a cute little kitten and it’s white. I always wanted a black cat but since I had fallen in love with this kitten –and encik of course…haha- I’ll bring it back. It’s a male and encik named it “putih”. Huh.. since mom already has ikan kaloi named Putih so I decided to call it “Shiro” –heh..the meaning is still white but in Japanese ^_^-

Will attach my darl as soon as I reach home. Hope everything will go smooth this evening!!

The abnormal

spending this "holiday" with an old-timer-movie. heh! I knew I won't have this opportunity in future so yeah.. why not? =) got a called from my colleague from kuantan office just now asking why can't I work back with them? Truth is I won't not cause I can't. I just don't want. Being admin wasn't an easy job after all plus when you have to deal with the account some more. I 'm just too tired. Maybe I should try something else.. An astronaut perhaps ;p

Too much things I have to think about.. 

such a hectic mind...right now

It's done!

As shock as it may sound..well yeah.. I did resign from my job here. I mean the one that offered me the big amount (allegedly). It was so much hectic and heartache I’m going to say but the details..well let me keep it myself. 

When you are the only different race among the others surely you will be treated “better” –in sarcastic way. I keep being patience and try to adapting to the environment but that’s it. Last Wednesday was my limit. And honestly if I keep staying in the same place, doing the same job I’ll be the women version of Incredible Hulk –but I’d prefer turning into purple rather than green. LOL. 

The policy stricted state that only can use ENGLISH –but hey, since there’s only one people with other race why don’t we just use our common tongue. It wasn’t the big problem actually. But can’t use malay words I think that’s a big BullS**t! Come on.. we are supposed to be 1Malaysia I presume. 

And the biggest s**t that I’m supposely control THE company account not the owner’s japanese restaurant, or do their clients’ E form or etc. Am only starting for a week and the bos assumed me to know every files located, every single receipts was kept or the previous years file was stored. This is absurd. Totally insane.

I knew i had signed the contract but look I’m still in probation. But did the boss listen to me..nope. And being the one who keep comparing me to her favourite staff and a month trainees there. So yeah. 

I’m pissing off and unemployed in time being. This I knew that being patience and keep staying there won’t do me any good!