semua untukmu

Ewah ewah ramai la yang bercuti hari ni yer. Cuti panjang la start dari hari khamis hari tu. Tapi aku ni keje gak. Bulan depan raya cina dapat la rasa nikmat cuti panjang. Hamek ko. Haha. Hari ni bersemangat datang ofis walaupun pakai t-shirt dengan jeans je. -_-“ ok masa mula-mula keje dulu memang rajin yang amat pakai baju kurung tudung belit-belit segala (masa tu kategori hijabsta belum wujud..ke?) da masuk tahun ke 2 keje terus malas nak iron bagai. Pakai t-shirt dgn jeans je lah.

Teringat dulu masa cik kerani baru masuk keje (late last year) dia tanya aku nak panggil aku apa? Aku selalu bahasa kan diri “akak” kalau dengan perempuan (ye dik..hakak sedar da masuk 3series ;p ) umur cik kerani baru 23 yer.. budak lepasan U. Aku senyum je.. aku cakap la panggil kak je sebab ai da tua (owh..senior hokey) dia cam terkedu sebab dia kata nampak macam muda dari dia –cerita betul takde tokok tambah..sila muntah hijau berjemaah- hahahahahaha..aku gelak je la. Ni mesti taktik nak amek hati ai. Owh tak rela. 

Cik kerani ni gak lah yang bagi aku mende ni. Contest dinner bersama Bang Nuar ku (wink wink). Memang aku meroyan la dgn encik suruh dia beli paper metro hari-hari sebab nak keratan loga RAP kat paper tu. Siap aku ugut dia kalau aku menang aku taknak bawak dia jumpa bang nuar (hahahaha..gelak guling2 berangan betol kan). Masa keluar iklan bang nuar nak buat konsert aku terus msg encik belikan aku tiket (harus la xdapat kan..huh) encik tanya bila konsert nyer terus aku jawab tak sempat nak tgk sebab tgk bang nuar senyum dgn lesung pipit dia terus xhingat dunia (jerit..jerit..;p)

 So sekarang borang da lengkap nak pos hari ni. Moga-moga dapat menang peraduan (hahaha)..kalau xdapat jumpa bang nuar dapat tgk ujung rambut pun xpe la ^_^

Sesekali ...(mode syahdu)

Owh ye... jarang sebenarnya aku nak komen pape tentang isu-isu semasa. Takut jadi isu pulak nanti. Tapi menyayat hati bila ada kes melibatkan kanak-kanak mahupun warga tua. Hati jadi pedih. Minggu lepas kalau tak silap aku terbaca berita tentang penjualan bayi –yang comel diletaknya harga tinggi. Yang kureng letak harga biasa je. Kesian kat bayi and pada pasangan yang masih belum ada zuriat sendiri. Yelah kalau da bertahun-tahun berusaha tapi masih belum ada rezeki apa salahnya kita ambil anak angkat –tapi biarlah melalui saluran yang betul. Yours truly pun ada hasrat nak ambil anak angkat cuma buat masa ni belum ada rezeki orang nak bagi anak diaorg minta tolong jaga. 

Itulah kan adat orang Melayu (refers to malay community cause i won’t dare make any comments to other race..huhu..) bila time single macam yours truly ni (umur pun nak beranjak ke 3 series ;) ) sibuk mencanang satu dunia persoalan bila la nak berumahtangga. Me myself didn’t think about it often. Ada adalah. Takde nak buat macam mana ;). Yang penting jangan sibuk menggatal dengan laki orang konsepnya. Hahaha.. bila da kawin pulak sibuk tanya bila nak ada anak. Tu yang terpaksa beli bayi walaupon bayar dengan harga beribu-riban. Yang ada anak pulak tergamak dera. Macam kes adik William tu. Entahla. Memang ada tahap kenakalan yang buat kita nak angkat tangan kat diaorang. Still jangan la sampai mendera. Sedangkan anak kucing pun tak sampai hati kita nak pukul inikan pula anak sendiri.

Malam ni syahdu pulak rasanya. Bila kita berada di tempat selesa kadang kala kita tak terfikir ada lagi makhluk Allah yang sengsara. Life is full of fake people. Before you decide to judge them,make sure you're not one of them.

Isnin yang hangit (or mentah?)

Argh..pagi-pagi mood da tak hepi >.< hari ni berangan nak jadi makcik nasik lemak. Beriya bangun kul 6 pagi nak masak sambal bagai. Siap da bilis goreng, telur rebus, timun, sambal udang bagai tengok-tengok nasi mentah!! Huwaaaa…

Letak lagi air tunggu sampai kering. Sempat lagi dok tengok kain baju kat mesin. 3 hari hujan maka jemuran memang tak berangkat. So pagi tadi tengok ampaian clear terus masukkan baju-baju dalam mesin. Sampai 3 kali spin nak pastikan baju kering balik nanti. Hari ni pun hujan lebat. Harus la ambil langkah berjaga-jaga kan.

Da habis spin 3 kali, da mandi (air sangat sejuk hokey..laksana bermandikan ais di pagi hari) siap-siap pakai tudung semua tengok nasi…mentah lagi plus lembik lak tu. Haru sangat. Hangat kan lagi nasi tu..terkocoh-kocoh jemur baju semua & sempat bersapa dengan 3 ekor anak kucing yang sangat comel (jiran punya) & jinak. Kita dok jemur baju dia lenggang kangkung datang ke baldi main-main kaki kite. -_-“ sorry kittens I have to go to work it’s already 8.15am. huhu

Tengok lagi periuk nasi still lembik. Huhu..salah teknik da ni. Tawakal jelah. Masuk dalam tupperware zap zap g koje. 8.30 am. Ambil colleague & jem! -_-“ couldn’t be any worse kan. Sampai ofis tengok nasi lembik sangat-sangat. Tak tahu nak usaha macam mane da.. harus ke bawa periuk nasi ke ofis? Hahahahaha –gelak jahat..

Tak lalu nak makan pe lagi bagi encik. -_-“ in the end kul 11 gi beli nasi putih je. Makan la dengan lauk nasi lemak tu. Cita-cita nak jadi makcik nasi lemak terkubur hari ni. Rasa down sangat-sangat >.<

mungkir bahagia

19 January 2013.

Almost three months haven’t written anything. Looking back, the same thing happened to this blog before 2012. I’m still in the same place, the same spot, and the same situation. Never knew how long can I stand nor how much I can take the pain.

True. I’m in such pain. The pain that only me and myself can feel and suffer –never to share with anybody nor will find a way to tell nobody. Numb. But what’s a rainbow without a little rain –well in my case more to “raining like cats and dogs”..meow..

Oh by the way this new year our family has grew bigger. ^^

Our cat, Oren, has given a birth to five-adorable-super-duper cute kitten.. plus 2 more –now a  4 month kitten- which my brother brought back with Oren. Hehe.. which means now we’re already 6 members plus 8 cats.. ohsem!!!

Will write more since now i do have an internet connection in my little pink crib ^^

Orang kuning sering mengecewakan tapi tak pernah menghampakan ..LOL

the way it supposed to be

Yesterday was hell –literally -_-“ maybe it was PMS –duhh! Maybe it was me myself. The day before I got news –a bad one which change my life forever –well not entirely forever but still huh…sigh! I knew it all along but it was a wake up call for me. Suddenly I have to change my entire living plan. Harusla bersedih sampai tertidur –yesh I am that kind of woman..sedih sampai tak henggat la kononnya.. hehe!

If my life were a fairytale obviously I would be that evil witch people hate the most and wish never ever existed! Contrary indeed. Last raya I felt so much blessed. People-who-hate-me-for-no-concrete-reason-from-i-was-a-lil-girl finally shedded their tears while hugged and kissed me. I was shocked. As much as I hated them for treating me wrongly I hugged them back. And I was relieved. Not because finally they like me –for-some-reason-which-i-don’t-even-know- but in my heart I knew I was able to forgive them and ask for forgiveness.

It is a blessed. Indeed. And it feels so much better now knowing we holding no grudge against each other –at least. But what’s my life without a cloud-stormy-rain? It ain’t easy.

Well.. I’ll just go with the flow. It’s a bit whimsical but I am sure I can handle it just like I always do. And at the end after all this messy-terrible-things had happened, I can give a pat on my shoulder. For being strong, determine and for being myself, honestly.

Already prepared my resign letter. I give myself 3 months and yes it means by end of this year. Sometimes I do wonder if I let myself free will I really be happy or getting worse? Or should I do something that I really like and lead my life the way I want? Melodramatically.

Whatever happens happens. Only God knows why and the best.