Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Day One : 10 things about you




-a daughter
-a sister
-an ongoing-student-for-i-don’t-know-how-long
-a worker
-an independent woman-still-in-a-making
-a clumsy girl
-a dreamer-whose-aim-for-the-highest-once-in-a-blue-moon
-a friend and foe –for-my-significant-one
-a good listener
-a good talker –if-i-knew-you-long-enough

lagi-lagi cabaran

hihi...new challenges..kali ni  10 hari jer..dapat ke tak..tak tahu la..tp kene try la..


ni dia..



Day One :
10 things about you

Day Two :
10 things you love

Day Three :
10 things you hate

Day Four :
10 things you want to say to one person

Day Five :
10 wishes

Day Six :
10 items you can't live without

Day Seven :
10 important people

Day Eight :
10 of your favourite songs

Day Nine :
10 ways to win your heart

Day Ten :
10 final words




dapat masa tengah wat blogwalking..ececececeh...
dengan ucapan..
aja-aja fighting...

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Cereka-ceriki...haissshhh

Sekarang ni I da jarang-jarang nak update status bagai kat fb. Dan kadang-kadang je I komen kat status kawan-kawan. Login fb selalu la. Just nak tengok update and gambar-gambar kawan-kawan. Macam trend lak orang-orang zaman millennium ni.. semua gambar pun nak masukkan dalam fb. ~well..tak kisah la..fb ko kan *tangan ke dada mata ke ats * lol~

So kawan-kawan seusia I ni ~lewat 20an..pfff~ ramai la yang dok khabarkan kat fb da pregnant la, da masuk hospital nak bersalin la, letak gambar newborn baby la..paling tak menahan nama budak-budak sekarang. Huhu..harusla berbelit nak menyebut plus panjang berjela…~whatever la..anak ko kan..~

Ahad lepas I g la kenduri kahwin colleague. Mujur gi belah lelaki nyer pihak (kawan I perempuan). Kalau pergi ari sabtu tu harusla I kene cuci periuk semua sebab after pengantin berarak makanan segala pon da diangkut oleh sanak sedara ;p.. tengah makan-makan encik tanya berapa kos cik pengantin buat majelis kat hotel 3 bintang. I cakap tak tau. Pastu encik kata die nak wat kat dewan kalo leh. Mak aih –I telan nasi pun cam tercekik- matila I kene pura-pura jadi wanita melayu terakhir kalo kene bersanding bagai. -_-“

Pastu I cakap kat encik.. xpayah la, I kalau leh nak wat yang wajib jer. Tunang-bersanding ni semua tak penting. Kalo encik nak wat kat dewan tah apetah lagi..encik bersanding sorang la. –sampai ke tua la I xkawen gamaknyer kalo harus bersanding-silat-berpelamin bagai-

Tapiiiiiii…………………………

Semua pun bila I da konvo master..my life will be incomplete if I didn’t put an end to what I have started years ago. Sebab I ada cita-cita nak ada phd before 40 ^_^ terpaksa la cari balik update journal. Manuskrip pon banyak kena gubal plus kene wat proposal la in case nak sambung phd. Bila fikir masa depan terus tersenyum sorang-sorang. Hihi.

Nota di pintu: letak nama anak Kasihku Tak Beropol dengan Jejaka Idaman Gadis Semalaya..boleh? hahahaah

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Aging and Pride

Woman and age.. do you know a simple question like “how old are you?” might consider as life-threatening? LOL. Me? I used to tell people I’m 18 all the time. but not at this tender age of late 20s (see… it’s a taboo to tell your age ;p ) when people ask me what’s my age..i would tell my real age. Its an honour to be this old (well old is cruel word- I preferred senior ~_^ ).

And I don’t mind if I were buying something and the salesgirl called me “Kak” (or Sis). Even it’s obvious the salesgirl looks older than me. It’s ok. It’s an honour when people called you such a way ~smile~ I presume they do respect me ..(just my expectations). And I am most likely feel honoured when a man called me “Kak” not “adik “ or younger names. (agasshi is acceptable..haha) for me..when a man called you “adik” or “dik” seems like he can makes fun of me coz I’m younger. It’s a big no to me. Here..even the colleagues 3-4 years older than me..i would call myself as “kakak” when I’m talking to them. Sound serious? Huhu.. yesh I can like you as my younger brother or sister but never the eldest. For me my biological brother is my only big bro…while encik/ahjussi is my only oppa.. (mode: gegeli). Big sister.. would I? NO.

But everything seems like a joke when my aunt came visit us at my home during last hari raya. Yesh..I am pixie compared to my other family members. Her son asked me my age. I smiled and said “27…but I do look young izzit?” (I was joking hokey.. coz I can sense the next question will be bout tying-some-knot..huh) and that my aunt said..”yalah..i was going to say the same..you haven’t age since last I saw u. maybe coz u look cute as school girl” when was the last time i saw her..i'm not sure but surely within my high school year. ROFL.. And she asked whether I’m joking bout being same age as my cousin who now has 3 kids…(whilst sum1 and her “bff” seemed annoyed when people keep saying me being younger than 27-looks compared to her bff a.k.a her daughter who older than me)

Silly izzit? There’s a time when people mistakenly assume I’m a kid when hearing my voice on the phone or asking whether I have an IC or not (wait..do I look like pendatang haram? LOL), and stuffs.. but I know I wasn’t so fresh, so innocent yet so fragile as teenager. I’d through a lot during my childhood, continue in my teenager life and now I can proudly say I’m a grown woman.

P/s to sum1 and her “bff”;

Everything you’ve said, you’ve done to me.. I’ll keep it tight in my heart.. No, it’s not revenge, just a reminiscent of my tiny heart. And doing all that nasty things u did to me to other people just showing how rotten you are. Your daughter will be sum1 wife (if not sooner, later then) and to duplicate you in such a way surely makes her a “wonderful” person.


Monday, August 22, 2011

F.a.i.t.h


Forget bout the 30 days challenge. I now have to challenge myself even more ~sigh~ .. even life is not a fairy tale, I do wish some miracles could be happen. But as unlucky as I am.. those wishes could never be granted.

No I didn’t lose hope nor give up my life a bit. I know it’s the hardest path I have to choose and yet it already picked me. Let me be in my own wonderland as no one could fit in it except me. For that I might giving u up.. Then thou shalt lead your life better without me..


Lord, please give him all my happiness and health for I will exchange with his pain, sickness and sad moment in his life. Please give him all the smiles and time of my life for I will carry his loneliness and emptiness. Please give him all the love I have, heart that I’ve received for I will take his sorrow with me.