new look..again..yippie!

yup...as m staying at new house (rent with my bro..-that's Bame for keeping me accompany..hihi) so i decided to change my blog's skin again..lol! n its GREEN...as green as my room =p.. huhu..life's so much better when u have no "judgers" anymore.. tol la..umah 2 xperlu besar @ mewah..yg penting penghuni rs selamat, selesa n hepi.. im feeling it now ~n my mum's house esp..so comfort ^_^ ~ we dont need expensive things to make us happy..yeah? ~well..maybe not "we" but "me" =p ~

hopefully..there's no more "emo" post from me after today (hihi) as m started a new life..new journey (well..as human being i cant promise to always be happy..but ill try my best ) m gaining weight..but sumhow i feel comfortable with my body =p.. n those friendly-acnes (which always hang-out on my face) seems to hate me now as they slowly moving out from my life (lol..n bekas2 jerawat pon udah ilang) yeay... sgt berdebar tggu 2012... as m promise myself i will look awesome on my graduation day! (perhaps its this year la =( ....) 

whatever happen..happen with reasons...no need to complain..juz keep moving on coz after thunderstorm..rainy day..theres alwiz a rainbow n beautiful sunshine ^_^

till i have sumthg to write 

(omg....i supposed to recheck my thesis now..its nearly APRIL...!!)

-coincidentally...m wearing a green baju kurung today..lol...GO GREEN girl!

~after rain~

~AMARAN: ENTRI INI LEH MENYEBABKAN SERANGAN ANGIN PUS2 BERTERUSAN SELAMA BEBERAPA HARKAAT~

tarikh: pertghn bulan Jan’2011

tempat: kedai mamak

waktu: dekat2 kul 8 mlm (sesuwei utk dinner)

kejadian: bang nuar jen tgh nyanyi kt tv3 (ekekeke)

            Encik : A, kt luar tu hujan ke?

            Sy : (bunyik cengkerik sekali)

            Encik: A…..hujan ke skrg ni? (dgn nada geget cuping telinge)

            Sy: (smbil tersipu2..) xla..(terus bersantap)

Hahaha…keji kan..adekah sbb sy terpesone dgn bang nuar? (owh tidak!) adekah sy masih obsess dgn bang nuar? Agaknye kot (smbil usik2 ujung langsir) hihihihi.. dah bln 2 tp sy lum lg listkan “kejayaan” thn 2010..(bjaye sgt ke?) ntahla.. kalo sy da berjaya skalipon (hey berjaya 2 kan subjektif!) sy masih lagi hamba –Nya yg hina.

Permulaan 2011 ni agak baek utk sy..cume ada 1,2 perkara buatkan hati sy goyah utk teruskan ape yg sy da usaha slama ni. Tp sy percaya stiap dugaan yg ditakdirkan akan buatkn diri kita lebih kuat. Physically, sy mmg tampak happy n diam dgn ape yg terjadi..but deep down inside kalo smpi certain boiling point..i will explode everythg. Jd kpd yg berkenaan sila la jg mulut 2…sy xnk kejadian raya thn lepas berlaku lak kt org laen.. (bawak2 la mengucap yer) =)

Demi seseorg, sy akan terus bersabar… tp sy xtau bp lama sy akan bersabar…sbb sy hanya seorg hamba-Nya yg lemah & penuh dgn kekhilafan..

Sgt serius utk entri kali ini..

=) setiap bangsa sama jer… yg penting hati

maaf..sy xsanggup..huhu

 sy sgt bz biler da start koje ni... mula la sy berfikir saat2 sy tanam anggur yg berbuah ranum dolu (a.k.a student master yg xbergaji..n xde wat pape..ekekeke) ~b/g lagu meet uncle hussein..lalalala kerja la...~ sy seronok dgn keja sy.. tensen2 pon at least berbayar.. dr relax tp nan ado kan..~walaupon keja sy totally different dgn pe yg sy belaja slame ni~ wasted? hurm..nope..i prefer think it as learning a new thing in my life (+ve thinking..hihi) sape sangka..perkara yg sy xbp nk minat ms sekolah dolu2 la yg sy akn ceburi skrg.. (big grin..school years..)

rs gembira je n syukur dgn hidup skrg... sy xkisah dgn keje yg berlambak2 atas meja..sy xkisah dok dlm opis yg bertimbun dgn file n kertas2..sy xkisah bile org pggil sy "HANA" instead of "ANA"..(ekekekeke) sy totally xkisah dgn gaye hidup org pantai timur bila mana sy hanyalah org selatan..(wink2) cuma kdg2 sy rindu dgn zaman blaja.. rindu dgn hidup dulu...kwn2.. (yg kebnyakan da bergelar isteri seseorg..huhu) 

owh yer..sy sgt salute kpd isteri2 yg bekerja dan juga merupakan ibu kepada beberapa cahaya mata.. pg2 da kene sediakan breakfast + lunch utk family, pas2 hantar ank2 g sekolah, then masuk opis..pas2 lunch hour nk g amek bdk2 dr sekolah, anta ke rumah, bg makan kt ank2 (suami skali)..xdan nk mkn ank lak wat hal..(a.k.a xnk mkn, tumpahkan air..bla2) suami lak arahkan itew ini..(cm xleh nk wat sdiri!) pas2 tergesa2 blk ke opis... smpi umah kul 6 ptg... angkat bj kt ampaian, rendam bj2 utk cuci plak..then mandikan ank2, wat minum ptg, mandi + basuh bj (alahai...) pas2 sediakan dinner... (still xleh mkn dgn tenang) pas2 berkemas.. ank2 lak xnk tdo awal..kul 12 br nk tdo..aduhai seorg mak.. esok rutin yg same plak..

-stop! wat sy terfikir.. perkara yg slalu kita dgr..keluhan seorg wanita...tp yg pelik nyer si suami masih lagi berfikiran di takuk lame.. (isteri kena sediakan keperluan suami n ank2...) tp isteri juga mempunyai 24 jam sehari seperti suami & manusia lain di muka bumi ini.. 

-sy hanya mampu dgr keluhan seorg rakan..smbil berfikir mungkin nasib sy juga akan jd sepertinya.. membuatkan sy rindu utk habiskan ms dgn mak sy. 

-"kita xkn tau perasaan seseorg..shinggala kita berada di tmpatnye.."

welcoming a new life

maybe i was pacified with my life..maybe i was forgotten how miserable i used to be..maybe i was foolish to let go of everythg i'd believe..maybe... -maybe if i stop saying "maybe" i dont have to think about it anymore..lol-

owh ya..blog sy sudah bertukar wajah -wacccaa- sy xmenafikan fitrah seorg manusia yg ingin myayangi & dsygi.. tp bkn la pd bangsa sekaum.. sbb sy percaya hamba2Nya diciptakan berpasangan berlainan jantina. sy jarang on fb utk mengetahui perkembangan kwn2 sy skrg ini..cuma mengisi ms dgn bermaen ravenwood -i loike- namun sy tertarik utk mendalami profile seorg lelaki ini. ye..semua manusia itu istimewa. dan die lebih istimewa jika die bijak memainkan peranan hidup dgn sewajarnye. lelaki ini mempunyai personaliti yg menarik, dan seandainye die "bertindak" sbgi jantina yg dikurniakan sjak lahir pastinya ramai wanita akan tertarik dgnnya. tp apakan daya..walau dikumpulkan sejuta wanita paling cantik di dunia masih tidak mampu menawan hatinya kerana die lebih tertarik dgn insan yg bernama "LELAKI". 

sy berdoa teman itu akan dpt hidayah suatu hari nanti. 

-jelas kini kenapa sy slalu menggunakan bahasa inggeris sbgi bahasa utama post sy..sbb bhs melayu sy sgt lemah..menangis smbil mkn brokoli-

the girl who said..I DOnt..

currently im falling in love with ravenwood fair in fb.. n yesh..m gaining like 7kg now..so total weight is 59kg!! wow..that is marvelous.. lol.. with not too tall size n gaining weights like that i could imagine myself being a petite yet plus size model! -laughing- oh plesh..i do love myself -beyond every women ways..lol- n sumtimes we do have to laugh at ourselves.. -we r not sum perfect creatures-

i dont - agree with using plastic bags  but what can i do if 1 whole world using it "generously" ? i can use friendly eco-bag every time i want to buy sumthg n say no every time the cashier want to give me plastic bags. n i m totally support some market that avoid plastic bags usage (even for 1 day in a week) that surely helps a lot.

i dont - amuse by P.D.A using fb from some lovey-dovey couples that keep praising each other, give "sweet" statement how much " i love u " to their significant one, or some statement they wrote n dedicate it for their kids who doesnt know fb yet doesnt even know how to read.. ROFL.. come on la.. u can alwiz use msg  in fb or  hello.. there is cellphone that u can alwiz use to connect with ur love 1..no need to tell the world la..but those were common things ppl do to show how perfect their life are? totally big N-O.

I dont - care how much u know how to cook everythg by showing those perfect meals pic u have invented. -sounds meanie but do i look i care?- does it important to show world that i could actually beat "top chef" ? or dont hate me coz u aint me as i know how to impress ppl by making this, this n this? LMAO.. -gosh i wonder why i hate social network these days.. -

but..

i do - admire a couple that i didnt even notice them until 1 day i met this lovely lady using frenster. -she's a fren of a fren of a fren of a fren..well actually we r in same matriks..lol- n that time shes about to get marry with a humble guy (same matriks also) shes not a hot chick type but shes sweet. n now they already have a child. i alwiz stalking them (hihi via fb ofc) no need those sweet words to express how they feel towards each other using fb (which can annoy ppl such as me..huhu)

i do - have a long distant relationship.. n dont tell how much difficult it is as ive been thru it for 10 years.. only God knows how it feels..

-statement dari seorg gadis kerdil di bumi ini-

wendu pd bukit broga..