maaf..sy xsanggup..huhu

 sy sgt bz biler da start koje ni... mula la sy berfikir saat2 sy tanam anggur yg berbuah ranum dolu (a.k.a student master yg xbergaji..n xde wat pape..ekekeke) ~b/g lagu meet uncle hussein..lalalala kerja la...~ sy seronok dgn keja sy.. tensen2 pon at least berbayar.. dr relax tp nan ado kan..~walaupon keja sy totally different dgn pe yg sy belaja slame ni~ wasted? hurm..nope..i prefer think it as learning a new thing in my life (+ve thinking..hihi) sape sangka..perkara yg sy xbp nk minat ms sekolah dolu2 la yg sy akn ceburi skrg.. (big grin..school years..)

rs gembira je n syukur dgn hidup skrg... sy xkisah dgn keje yg berlambak2 atas meja..sy xkisah dok dlm opis yg bertimbun dgn file n kertas2..sy xkisah bile org pggil sy "HANA" instead of "ANA"..(ekekekeke) sy totally xkisah dgn gaye hidup org pantai timur bila mana sy hanyalah org selatan..(wink2) cuma kdg2 sy rindu dgn zaman blaja.. rindu dgn hidup dulu...kwn2.. (yg kebnyakan da bergelar isteri seseorg..huhu) 

owh yer..sy sgt salute kpd isteri2 yg bekerja dan juga merupakan ibu kepada beberapa cahaya mata.. pg2 da kene sediakan breakfast + lunch utk family, pas2 hantar ank2 g sekolah, then masuk opis..pas2 lunch hour nk g amek bdk2 dr sekolah, anta ke rumah, bg makan kt ank2 (suami skali)..xdan nk mkn ank lak wat hal..(a.k.a xnk mkn, tumpahkan air..bla2) suami lak arahkan itew ini..(cm xleh nk wat sdiri!) pas2 tergesa2 blk ke opis... smpi umah kul 6 ptg... angkat bj kt ampaian, rendam bj2 utk cuci plak..then mandikan ank2, wat minum ptg, mandi + basuh bj (alahai...) pas2 sediakan dinner... (still xleh mkn dgn tenang) pas2 berkemas.. ank2 lak xnk tdo awal..kul 12 br nk tdo..aduhai seorg mak.. esok rutin yg same plak..

-stop! wat sy terfikir.. perkara yg slalu kita dgr..keluhan seorg wanita...tp yg pelik nyer si suami masih lagi berfikiran di takuk lame.. (isteri kena sediakan keperluan suami n ank2...) tp isteri juga mempunyai 24 jam sehari seperti suami & manusia lain di muka bumi ini.. 

-sy hanya mampu dgr keluhan seorg rakan..smbil berfikir mungkin nasib sy juga akan jd sepertinya.. membuatkan sy rindu utk habiskan ms dgn mak sy. 

-"kita xkn tau perasaan seseorg..shinggala kita berada di tmpatnye.."

welcoming a new life

maybe i was pacified with my life..maybe i was forgotten how miserable i used to be..maybe i was foolish to let go of everythg i'd believe..maybe... -maybe if i stop saying "maybe" i dont have to think about it anymore..lol-

owh ya..blog sy sudah bertukar wajah -wacccaa- sy xmenafikan fitrah seorg manusia yg ingin myayangi & dsygi.. tp bkn la pd bangsa sekaum.. sbb sy percaya hamba2Nya diciptakan berpasangan berlainan jantina. sy jarang on fb utk mengetahui perkembangan kwn2 sy skrg ini..cuma mengisi ms dgn bermaen ravenwood -i loike- namun sy tertarik utk mendalami profile seorg lelaki ini. ye..semua manusia itu istimewa. dan die lebih istimewa jika die bijak memainkan peranan hidup dgn sewajarnye. lelaki ini mempunyai personaliti yg menarik, dan seandainye die "bertindak" sbgi jantina yg dikurniakan sjak lahir pastinya ramai wanita akan tertarik dgnnya. tp apakan daya..walau dikumpulkan sejuta wanita paling cantik di dunia masih tidak mampu menawan hatinya kerana die lebih tertarik dgn insan yg bernama "LELAKI". 

sy berdoa teman itu akan dpt hidayah suatu hari nanti. 

-jelas kini kenapa sy slalu menggunakan bahasa inggeris sbgi bahasa utama post sy..sbb bhs melayu sy sgt lemah..menangis smbil mkn brokoli-

the girl who said..I DOnt..

currently im falling in love with ravenwood fair in fb.. n yesh..m gaining like 7kg now..so total weight is 59kg!! wow..that is marvelous.. lol.. with not too tall size n gaining weights like that i could imagine myself being a petite yet plus size model! -laughing- oh plesh..i do love myself -beyond every women ways..lol- n sumtimes we do have to laugh at ourselves.. -we r not sum perfect creatures-

i dont - agree with using plastic bags  but what can i do if 1 whole world using it "generously" ? i can use friendly eco-bag every time i want to buy sumthg n say no every time the cashier want to give me plastic bags. n i m totally support some market that avoid plastic bags usage (even for 1 day in a week) that surely helps a lot.

i dont - amuse by P.D.A using fb from some lovey-dovey couples that keep praising each other, give "sweet" statement how much " i love u " to their significant one, or some statement they wrote n dedicate it for their kids who doesnt know fb yet doesnt even know how to read.. ROFL.. come on la.. u can alwiz use msg  in fb or  hello.. there is cellphone that u can alwiz use to connect with ur love 1..no need to tell the world la..but those were common things ppl do to show how perfect their life are? totally big N-O.

I dont - care how much u know how to cook everythg by showing those perfect meals pic u have invented. -sounds meanie but do i look i care?- does it important to show world that i could actually beat "top chef" ? or dont hate me coz u aint me as i know how to impress ppl by making this, this n this? LMAO.. -gosh i wonder why i hate social network these days.. -

but..

i do - admire a couple that i didnt even notice them until 1 day i met this lovely lady using frenster. -she's a fren of a fren of a fren of a fren..well actually we r in same matriks..lol- n that time shes about to get marry with a humble guy (same matriks also) shes not a hot chick type but shes sweet. n now they already have a child. i alwiz stalking them (hihi via fb ofc) no need those sweet words to express how they feel towards each other using fb (which can annoy ppl such as me..huhu)

i do - have a long distant relationship.. n dont tell how much difficult it is as ive been thru it for 10 years.. only God knows how it feels..

-statement dari seorg gadis kerdil di bumi ini-

wendu pd bukit broga..

the girl who is...unsure -sigh-

yesterday..my mom asked that "special" question in my life? -when u will graduate for 2nd time?- n that question really hit me hard! -dush-(feeling beaten up..lol) seriously..me myself didnt have the exact answer.. surely i wanna convo (desperately!) n i will feel upset with myself if i cant make it. i mean after those sweats, tears n etc..etc..of course i wanna be graduate for my master.. it juz...i dont even know.. (denial!)

but what i can say..i will graduate next year..n i will make it inevitable..(lol?) juz hope n pray..n not to forget to finish everythg a.s.a.p... i really have a long list plan for next year..n this wont stop me..(hihi)

the girl who wants to cry no more

how pathetic.. lol.. (talking bout own self) if u happened to like sumthg in ur life its sooo hard to leave it juz like that. yet it's harder when it comes to love sum1 esp.. i may b an old-fashioned girl (still can consider myself "a girl" ? haha) as i told myself since i can remember that i wud only date sum1 who will become my mate one day. n who will know that right? i pretty certain, even for once in our live, we used to have a sign or signal for ourselves.. like when we 1st time met sum1 special we cud knew if they were meant for us.. or wont they? =p

i used to have a crush with a heartthrob guy( ^_^) -btw my definition of great guy is different from other girls so who cares if he's hot for me n not for others? hihi- im crazy for this guy (b4 i met mr.z obviously...=p) sent him letters (n he replied it tho) but i was wrong.i mean..i like him coz he has similar figures as the one i used to get crush b4 not bcoz i like him as himself. n as the friendship evolves, we get separated in finding our ways.. he met his fiancee n will get marry soon. n im happy for him.(seriously) sumhow i wonder if he ever said the sacred word "ahem" n we didnt compatible for each other, we will break off eventually, right? n what happen to my vow that i want to date my mate only? see..things happened for reasons.. (talk to myself..)